jersey_di1's Journal, 02 Jan 19

Ok. Wow. I have truly outdid myself here.. I have not been this fat in ages.. I feel horrible and unattractive and no clothes fit me! And my asthma got worse, but I no longer wonder why!! I feel ashamed. I have no excuse except for being a total pig and eating until I felt like I am going to be sick.. how stupid is that? and yet I was happy when doing it.. I got so far..went down to 70ties and now I have yet again hit 100!!! on the dot too, just to completely shatter my illusion that I did not eat THAT much..

2018 has been a write off so 2019 must be better, as I could have not done any worse.. so here it goes, the corny 'new year new me' rubbish I hate so much but I have no choice than to try and try again and again. And it will be easier this time of the year as everyone is at it.. small steps.
100 kg Lost so far: 16 kg.    Still to go: 10 kg.    Diet followed: Reasonably Well.

View Diet Calendar, 02 January 2019:
2926 kcal Exercise: Fitbit - 24 hours. more...
Gaining 1.1 kg a Week

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Try and keep your chin up and stay positive... you can do this , do it for yourself- small steps ..and I’m sure you’ll get help and support from this great site ..👍x 
01 Jan 19 by member: gary20
As the old saying goes.....If at first you don't succeed....try try n try again.. good luck for this New year! 
02 Jan 19 by member: 31Ross
You talk about small steps but today you have taking one huge step....a step of being honest with yourself. you can do this....there's a whole bunch of strangers here who will be with you every step of the way I'm sure. loosing weight is all about making the right choices. look at the people on here... look at there starting points and where they are now. There just normal people like you and me.... if they can do it...so can you....and you will. Good luck 
02 Jan 19 by member: angieopg
Keeping my fingers crossed for you! x 
02 Jan 19 by member: Aguuulek
I'm up loads too but not as honest as you so come on girlie we can do this together 👍❤ 
02 Jan 19 by member: jacshadow
Wow that's so brave, it is what's inside counts, but people don't see that so I understand your need to be beautiful inside and out, but try to look at it from a health point of view, do it for you, sod the people who judge you, just keep plugging away at it for you and you alone! Folks on here are great for advice and inspiration so use that. Good luck let's all make 2019 the year for success and building self esteem  
02 Jan 19 by member: handscombe
glad to see you getting back into it! food is ADDICTIVE. I hope your 2019 is good for you, a few months you can lose that 10kg! 
02 Jan 19 by member: Yasmine15585
btw girlie, I think your daily calorie goal intake may be a little too high. I'd aim for about 1350. Give or take 100. and I feel you so hard about feeling fat & ugly. I've been were heavier, and you know what? I still feel terribly fat. I'm always going to hate parts of my body  
02 Jan 19 by member: Yasmine15585
I have the same problem. I developed signs of anorexia last time I was on a diet and I became so afraid that I'd become anorexic that I couldn't tell myself "no". I gained 7 kilos in 4 months. My clothes don't fit me, my self esteem is worse than ever and to top it all off, I barely recognise the girl in the mirror. You're not alone here. 
02 Jan 19 by member: pondscum21
You are amazing for owning this and you can get back to the 70s or wherever you want to be ❤️❤️❤️ 
02 Jan 19 by member: reedruby
hello jersey_di1 don't give up you are hero .. you are great .. just don't give up .. and you will reach your goal in the end 🌹  
02 Jan 19 by member: osama samaraii
jersey_di1 .. try to eat cucumber .. put 2 kg of cucumber on the table .. and eat what you need of cucumber when you feel hungry .. this what i did in my past days .. now I'm too close to reach the goal .. try it for two weeks then tell me what happens whith you ( sorry for my language) I hope you can understand what I mean... 
02 Jan 19 by member: osama samaraii
Don’t give up on yourself.. 👊 
02 Jan 19 by member: lrial4
This group is so supportive. One of the groups on Facebook for keto is totally the opposite and people are really hurtful. Nothing improves our hearing and gets our attention like praise! So motivational too! So big thank you to everyone. Just saying 😀 Hope you are feeling inspired Jersey ❤x 
03 Jan 19 by member: jacshadow
Thank you so much guys!!! Your support is truly appreciated xxx and it is comforting to know that I am not alone with the emotional struggle linked to eating. People often do not understand how much more complicated issue with weight is than just eating too much for no reason xx I feel positive at the moment and slowly working towards getting back on track as I feel very unhealthy and that is my priority at the moment  
03 Jan 19 by member: jersey_di1
Stay positive it is just a “speed bump” on the road to healthier living - if it was easy anyone could achieve it keep going 👍 
03 Jan 19 by member: humpTdumpty
similar story here. finally feel motivated and "in the zone" - my health is suffering so I need to slap myself back to reality. I've lost the weight before and I can do it again. stay focused,remember why you're doing this and don't self hate when you have a bad day. you can do this 💪💪💪 
03 Jan 19 by member: cpt.janeway74656
Jersey_Di1, you SO are not the only one who does this. 🙆🏻‍♀️I have an abusive background and spent YEARS hiding behind my weight so I wouldn’t be attractive to men. So they would have to see the ‘real’ me. 🙇🏻‍♀️I knew I was doing it, and it helped to keep the attention that my looks used to draw away from me. 🤦🏻‍♀️But I’m that older version! LOL And further down the line, I’m the voice of experience telling you that the health rusks are far from worth being self destructive and hiding in the folds of fat. 😘 Try to treat your body well. A few things that have helped me on this journey are meditation (insighttimer.com) and a process called tapping or EFT. (There are aps out there for your phone on this one!) 🙋🏻If you have PTSD problems like I did, try to get into counseling with someone who knows EMDR therapy. It canbe majorly beneficial! 💁🏻‍♀️But most of all, treat yourself kindly! LOL Those inner monologues are truly damaging and need to be a positive influence on you, not a negative one. I so wish you good luck and massive success!🙋🏻 
03 Jan 19 by member: smprowett
I had a crap emotional 2018. marriage breakdown, father passed away, heavy depression. I drank through the pain and put on 31 lbs in the process. hitting dry Jan and keto to reset my brain. We are in control of our present and future. the past has gone.  
04 Jan 19 by member: dave120765
good luck from the bottom of my heart 
04 Jan 19 by member: thesain

     
 

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