jersey_di1's Journal, 04 Jun 18

So I have taken some time off from here and being healthy in general.. I am not yet ready to face up to what damage I did so I will not weigh in until I am. I know I put on loads and I feel horrible and fat and unhealthy. I needed a break which turned into a binge and it felt good for a while but now I look at what I have done and I feel so disappointed and so stupid for doing it! I don't need advice on how to loose weight and be healthy as that's not difficult, what's difficult is applying what you know. I have been here before and I refuse to give up. I will get to my goal. I will get back onto being healthy and I will be proud of myself. Tomorrow is my first day on a new job and I feel so let down by my actions that I start it looking like a pig and no work clothes fit me.. No excuses no 'we all have bad days' no sympathy needed as by now I should know better! I feel so so stupid. I do not want to be this fat pig who cannot wear summer clothes, who's thighs rub together until they bleed and who's fat giggles with every step!! Yet I go and do this.. sometimes we need tough love and this is my tough love to myself. Only I can make a difference and only i am responsible for the way I look. and I will not give up. Tomorrow is a new day and it's going to be healthy one as well. best to all and remember if you feel tempted - trust me it is not worth it!!!

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1311 kcal

Fat: 43.40g | Prot: 70.52g | Carbs: 152.39g.   Lunch: Co-Op Truly Irresistible Chicken Pesto Rosso & Strozzapreti Pasta. Dinner: Heinz Burger Sauce, Bertolli Olive Oil Spread, Hovis Thick White Bread, Marks & Spencer Balanced For You Chicken Katsu Curry. Snacks/Other: Drench Peach & Mango Juicy Spring Water. more...

2434 kcal

Exercise: Fitbit - 24 hours. more...