chesgreen's Journal, 06 Nov 17

I think I suffer from depression. Not getting enough sun. I just want to eat. Broke my 95 days of logging food yesterday. I have a bag of peanut M&Ms in front of me and I already had 2... make that 3. It is only 8:37 AM.

208, TWO ZERO EIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!! Might as well keep going and make that 210 or 220. Why stop now. Bye bye 6 pack for summer of 2018 and here comes the big fat guy ready to get sand kicked on me by the little kids when I take a nap on the beach or ever worse, maybe some one will yell "Roll him back in the water, he's suffocating"

Why, Why?

Sugar is my friend.

My BP is 160 over 100 --- What the hell?

I dunno anymore.

-Sad Ches
94.3 kg Lost so far: 15.4 kg.    Still to go: 3.6 kg.    Diet followed: Poorly.

View Diet Calendar, 06 November 2017:
1623 kcal Fat: 125.57g | Prot: 68.42g | Carbs: 62.16g.   Breakfast: Bragg Organic Apple Cider Vinegar, Water, International Delight Coffee House Inspirations - Half & Half, Coffee, M&M's Peanut M&M's (Package). Lunch: Beets, Polar Seltzer with Lime, Grilled Chicken, Extra Virgin Olive Oil, Newman's Own Balsamic Vinegar, Boiled Egg, Feta Cheese, Mixed Salad Greens. Dinner: Polar Seltzer with Lime, Mayonnaise, StarKist Foods Solid White Albacore Tuna in Water, Calavo Avocado, Boiled Egg. Snacks/Other: Cream (Half & Half), Coffee, America's Choice Natural Almonds, Pistachio Nuts. more...
3043 kcal Exercise: Fitbit - 24 hours. more...
Gaining 1.5 kg a Week

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You can do this!!! Just a setback that you can over-come! Put the M&M's down and back away. Just because your started the day bad, doesn't mean you have to end it that way... every little change makes a difference. Believe me - I was there last week! Stress over-load is not helpful to good intentions! Routing you on! :) 
06 Nov 17 by member: karenhaley
Ches Cheer up my friend!!!!! You have done so well!! I know your recent photo compared to your your profile photo shows a weight loss. You talk about weather blues. People all the time that live in my area including yours truly complain about the Tampa Bay Weather, Vacationers love it, but if you live here, we have two seasons hot and hotter. We had a couple of nice days of 60-70, now we are back up to the 80's again, Years ago when I was a teenager, ( I am 48 now) we used to get a cooler winter longer) The Joke now is now 2 weeks in January. Believe me are weather can really be depressing if you get tired of the heat, Thankgod its atleast going into the 70's at night now... But Once hot season hits, its a nightmare, Thats why I suffered so much that week during Irma without power. I cannot even imagine the hell Puerto Rico is going through being they are south of us. Once I retired I will move to more neutral weather state. What about that marathon you just ran!!! TURN THAT FROWN UPSIDE DOWN. We are get an eating binge every now and then, its not the end of the world or YOUR DIET. 
06 Nov 17 by member: Maine coon
Who is this posting for Ches? Surely not the guy that encourages others all the time and always has a positive outlook... Got off the couch and go do a hobby, get out of the house, DETOX the desk (get rid of the bad things). My shop is my safe place on weekends. Nothing out there but things to work with (burn calories), a frig with water and my cured meats (good for the WOE I follow), and no way to become bored, if I put my mind to it. In the kitchen that you use for a workout room, how is it stocked? Only keep good things in there, when bored, or the mind hunger begins, go out there and work on something or work out. You can get through this, it's MOSTLY a mind thing. Make it mind over matter... You don't mind, it don't matter! 
06 Nov 17 by member: crankybuzzard
Keep your head up. Don't be so hard on yourself we all have off weeks. Every step in the right direction says something. Get some cardio in! Keep trying don't give up.  
06 Nov 17 by member: amberallen2
I was going to post the same comment as Crankybuzzard - someone else wrote Ches's post. Doesn't sound like you. I think the change of season may have something to do with it. I look forward to this time of year, don't like the heat of the summers where I live. But now, that it is cold enough to turn on the heater and put the flannel sheets on the bed I have to force myself out of bed to bundle up in warm clothes to do my daily walk. 
06 Nov 17 by member: Fritzy 22
I was where you are for about a month. Nothing I did was right and it seemed like the world was out to get me. Hang in there, it will pass. You've come a long way and this is just a bump in the road. When you feel like picking up an M&M, go for a short walk, even if it's to the bathroom. Good luck. 
06 Nov 17 by member: mickfan1
Listen to your friends on fs, we all love and admire you. I agree with all the posts before me. May I add my personal thought? I think your cabs are too low, try eating some good carbs see if your mood picks up. Your seratonin levels may be off as well, cloudy days can make you moody and negative. Hang in there Ches🙏🏻 
06 Nov 17 by member: 8Patty
I'm sorry, i laughed so hard at this....it is how I've been feeling lately and man, you said it all! actually, this is very motivating for me! Today you've reminded me that i do need to start taking my vitamins on a regular basis! Vitamin D especially!! I live in Ohio where sunshine is rare and depression is high. My Dr. recommended i take 3000iu per day. every now & again some of us need a cheat day. Last week was a cheat week for me, my brother was home to visit & brought the family this time (he's in the AF) we went out to eat sometimes twice a day & visited a lot of places, two in particular. One that makes candy & the other donuts & fudge. I forgave myself & am continuing taking care of myself today! Keep being awesome! Get some vitamin D! Forgive yourself! I'm looking forward to seeing an awesome post tomorrow! Thank you for the motivation!  
06 Nov 17 by member: chubby lil butterball
Ditto what everybody else said already. I'm betting you need to move around some. Maybe more fluid intake. Call a friend you haven't spoken to in a while. 
06 Nov 17 by member: TomLong
Keep the faith Ches, flush those M & M's. One swallow at a time. Low sugar, low carbs, no processed foods rock. Depression is a choice, don't chose it. Work on the Entric System, it controls the brain. Best to ya !! 
06 Nov 17 by member: msopkiw1
be the person who throws away the M&Ms 
06 Nov 17 by member: lauraj366
nothing to add to all this good advice. Just know that we are all cheering you on🌱 
06 Nov 17 by member: sandyeg
You achieved so much already so why to go back to where you were before? You will have to start all over again. Sugar is like an addiction and it is possible you may have a relapse but I think if you snack sugar from time to time then it`s not that bad. Sugar makes me happy for a short period of time then I feel guilt and embarrassment that I couldn’t resist it. Just try to put yourself back in one piece. Maybe tomorrow when you feel better would be worth to have an honest conversation with yourself and ask what your goals are why you would allow temptation to get you back to where you were before? Depression is the hardest to fight because you lose all the power and motivation but I hope it will go away soon. I often see your posts running or exercising and I wished I was like you, I wished I had the motivation to change my clothes and go running like you. You are a great motivation and don`t let the depression to get to you. Tomorrow is a new day!  
06 Nov 17 by member: Mal321
Trust me when I say the M&M's are not worth it in the end. Depression is a hard one. I suffer from it myself. I fight giving up everyday. I was just sick for a month with some damn lung infection and couldn't do anything. It was the hardest thing I have ever done not to just give up and eat whatever. The doctor finally gave me the go ahead to lightly workout starting today. I dragged my butt on the bike and rode it for 20mins then did some light weight training. I feel so sick now but so happy I did it. You can do it too!! If you really do feel you are depressed may I suggest you seek out some help from your doctor. I was on a antidepressant for years but since working out and watching my diet I haven't need it. I was able to cut back then cut it out all together. Trust though I needed it when I was taking it. You can do this.  
06 Nov 17 by member: angelfancy
We all get there sometimes Ches.....hang in there and know we are cheering you on!!! 
06 Nov 17 by member: lakjhatch
Sunshine is good for you and a little water weight won't hurt. Maybe you don't know how strong you really are, because there are probably dozens like me who read but don't comment that you've been carrying unknowingly all this time. Your story inspires and I send you love and strength to stay the course.  
06 Nov 17 by member: movieball
I've been where you are. Depressed and wondering why I can't just be normal and have a piece of cake. Then I eat the entire cake and feel like a total failure. I think to myself I just want to be normal. It didn't matter to me that I liked how I looked and felt. Food took control. So I had a cheat day. Then a cheat week. Then a month of eating normally. Then it was 6 months. Then more. All of a sudden I couldn't wear my clothes any longer and now I'm back to my starting weight. I really don't know how to get past those feelings. I've never succeeded. I don't know how people reach a goal and stay there forever. I believe it is a struggle that we always have to endure. I think this site and the support you get is possibly the key. I do know at some point people stop commenting on your weight loss and just accept the new you as normal. But you are not normal. And encouragement is important. Hope this is not depressing you more. I really just want you to know how important your post is and that you don't want to go back. Keep fighting. We are here for you 
06 Nov 17 by member: newnbetter
You know as well as anyone...that it's all about being consistent and looking at the big picture...winter time is hard for everyone...me included...not a day goes by..that I don't thing what the heck am I getting out of bed to do s ride/workout..when I could just throw in the towel...but after the ride...i always feel so much better and happy that I achieved another ride/workout...you need to get into your zone at a certain time each day to refocus...only you can find that focus...once you find it...its easier to stay on track... 
06 Nov 17 by member: wannabhealthier
This isn't YOU - it's your circumstances, some thrust upon you... others of your own creation. Deal with those you can... and charge ahead like your reinforcements are on their way! 
06 Nov 17 by member: From371to184
You are my Hero! You can't give up! Make some low carb treats to keep around when temptation is strong. I keep keto cookies and candy in the freezer for emergency situations. The receipes are on Pintrest. Just type in keto receipes. I made pumpkin cake last night. Even my mom Ket o husband liked it. 
06 Nov 17 by member: Bluper

     
 

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