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Well I've been pretty sidetracked the last few weeks. I've had constant diarrhoea, which went when I went off keto but ... then came back. Severe. I've had a UTI that will not leave me alone, I'm now on horse pills for 10 days and gone in for all of the tests a person can get.
Nausea's been crippling, pelvis hurts appallingly all the time, I haven't been making good choices with food and I don't even care.
Considering going back on a milk fast, because I know milk doesn't hurt my guts.
This process happens a lot to me. I lose a chunk of weight, and then get really sick, and then stop focusing on the weight loss because the non-variables, of me working full time, paying the mortgage, etc etc, do not shift and so I just have to shuffle the rest of my life around to accommodate that.
I've had bad energy for nearly 10 yrs now, I had a moan at the doctor's this morning; Pelvic pain, nausea and exhaustion have been full time companions for nearly a decade, and there's no respite when you HAVE to keep working because you have children, and no husband. You grind your way through things you otherwise might rather rest from.
I dream often of selling my house, telling the boss to find someone else, and going and living in a house truck. I could work the orchards all around New Zealand. I watch videos about places like "Slab City" and I dream of moving there. I want an escape from the hell that is constant ongoing work when sick.
Oh a happier note I'm going away for a week on Tuesday, staying with a friend that wants to try keto, so maybe that will get me back in the game. God, antibiotics and gut problems willing.
... at least I haven't gone up from 89, right?
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89 kg
Lost so far: 14 kg.
Still to go: 4 kg.
Diet followed: Poorly.
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314 kcal
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Fat: 22.02g | Prot: 26.90g | Carbs: 0.90g.
Breakfast: Bridgie's Keto Unstunt coffee. Lunch: Chicken Drumstick. more...
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steady weight
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