adefwebserver's Journal, 30 Oct 20

Glad you are feeling better Adef. You'll get there.  

@shiny50 - Thanks! Good luck with your journey too! :) 

Good to hear that you have been feeling better, it is so important! Have a great run! 

Being that you support BLM one can assume that by the correct way you mean the dems will win. This is not the place for politics but if you do support Biden & Harris I have a sincere curiosity as to why? They support tax payor funded late term abortion, mandatory gun buyback, no privatized health care options, open borders-which leads to higher sex trafficking numbers & crime via ms13 gangs, defunding the police, a no bail policy for all criminals, no fossil fuels by 2035 which will devastate our economy, & packing our court with radical activist judges (rather than fair & impartial) which will mean they can rubber stamp any law they they wan't into place reagrdless how unconstitutional it may be Kamala Harris said herself on the Steven Colbert show on 6-18-20 that the blm riots wont stop & shouldn't stop, not even after the election. They were calling the BLM riots peaceful protest then they had a change of heart once it started to negatively impact their polling numbers. How could you support the BLM riots whcih have hurt and killed many innocent people & cops. Do you support Cancel Culture? Do you support the misguided idea that we are all systemically racist?  

cc81004 well said! 

Stop trolling. Thats what FB and Twitter are for! 

Please do not make FS a political war zone! 

Cc81004, I think that you should head your own advice. This is the second time that you bring politics to this site that I have seen. Please delete your post. It is a stressful time, don't purposely bring it to this site.  

well said cc81004!! 

I'm not going to bother deleting the negative comments. That's how 'numb' I am to the whole situation. When things get back to normal, I may then have the mindset that will allow me to think about losing weight again... 

@moufette123 - Thanks. I look back on my past journals to see what I 'was thinking and feeling' during times I was 'successful' and 'not-so-successful' and I was able to make 5-7 day 'commitments' and stick to them. For months, I have been 'just get through today'. The most I seem to get myself to 'stick to' is two days, max. Yes much of this 'just try to get through the day' is COVID, but, having the **soul crushing racism** that you have lived with (and unfortunately accepted) all your life, thrown in your face is *very painful*. Inside me there is no way to 'unring that bell' - - I wont be happy until things change. That's why stupid racists posts don't phase me, I am willing to die for this. 

There are so many hurting hearts. There are worries and pain felt by so many, and that sorrow and depression can and does break down resolve to make good, healthy choices with our diet and exercise plan. Our challenges and what impacts us are all different, but we can and should all love and show support. ❤️ You have all my support, Adefwebserver. May you find strength and hope. You are strong and you are brave. You have been devoted to working hard on this battle for health and fitness so long. Sadly, there is no simple fix for the problems in our world, but but there is light and there is beauty and there is growth. I've seen it in myself and I've seen it in others! Hang tight! 

Sounds like you got it together and you know just what you're doing good job 

This wasn't a personal attack on you, you seem like I nice person. Seeing your support for BLM bothers me than it does most people especially because I have a nephew in law enforcement & I have seen the violence from BLM. Guess for the sake of FS & the FS community we will have to agree to disagree. God bless you. 

Hi. Where are you at? I understand where you are coming from. hang in there 

@liv001 - Thank you for asking! I hope you are doing well 🙌🏾👍🏾 - I am 'back on the diet' but, waiting two weeks before I weight. The election in the USA went the right way and that finally gave me the motivation to care about my weight again.  

Happy to hear it motivated you. The vaccine news was also encouraging... I did feel lighter yesterday for some reason. But we are snowed in. Second day in a row where nothing is going to move much.  

@liv001 - Yes the pfizer vaccine info is *very encouraging* 👍🏾👍🏾🤎 - @Candy maraka - Thanks! 

Happy Friday!!! 

@liv001 - Thanks! You too :)