Bexandthesea's Journal, 26 Jun 20

Don't give up! Think of all the times when it was so dark you couldn't see the light at the end..but you are still standing! You are stronger than you give yourself credit for and whenever you feel down just look at your gorgeous boys face and remind yourself what your doing it all for. My mum always says 'how do you eat an elephant,,in bite size chunks' day to day, step by step you will get there. I'm sending you positive vibes and a great big hug.Stay strong🙏 🤗♥️ 

Thank you Booty....I really need support at the moment, I've realised I can't do this alone, I need the help of others!  

I never used to ask for help or admit if I wasn't doing well or not coping, I would have rather stuck a fake smile on or shut myself in as I didn't want to burden anyone and didn't want anyone to see me in that state. I didn't realise that u wasn't shutting myself in,,I was shutting everyone else out. I also learned the hard way (full blown nervous breakdown later) what stress does to the body. I put my feelings on the shelf until my shelf totally collapsed. So well done for putting yourself out there, admitting you are bloody human and needing a bit of support...that takes courage and strength! 👏🤗♥️ 

Lots going on BexandThesea. So easy for me to sit on my big arse and say things will be fine. Keep going - first thing to sort out is your boy (if he has no reason whatsoever to be waking you up at godly forsaken hours) - that is a must. I wonder where you live.  

Sending lots of restorative love to you! I'm sorry you're going through such a hard time, life can be so cruel sometimes. But you can absolutely get through it and you'll come out the other side even stronger! Holding you in mind and don't forget you've got all us FS people here too! There's a lot to be positive about even though it isn't easy. Sam xxxxx 

And I second Booty's comment! 

Firstly you need me Time, to adjust ❤️ probably just grabbing anything just to stop you being hungry be kind to yourself for a while ❤️, I am the same since my husband prostate cancer as spread, listen look after your little boy and you for a while then your body and mind will let you know when the time is right ❤️ sending you a virtual hug x 

Thank you all for your powerful comments.... So far so good with the calorie counting 😊 still no proper sleep, but tonight could be the night my little one sleeps through 💤🤞  

Aww I understand I lost a loved one too, put on 13kg during lockdown 😆 when I was doing so well lol illnesses got in the way, you can do it! 👍🏻 

Here's hoping Bex 😴🤞