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25 May 2020

Feeling like my body is carrying an oversized sumo wrestler, I debated long and hard with myself whether I should go on the scales. "You got to bite the bullet," my inner voice instructed me "for better or for worse." So I climbed on the scales convinced they would show a gain - I mean how could they not after an entire week's of overeating?!

I remember from Weight Watchers way back in my younger years that weight does not show immediately; it is building slowly. So maybe next week will come my punishment. Or maybe the weight is a result of taking water tablet yesterday to ease with the bulk of the lymphedema which makes it hard to walk.

You see weekends are my worst days: daughter not doing my bandaging and not cooking. I spend 48 hours without human contact. How tragic is that?! Anyway, enough explaining/excuses. I must try harder this week. I need to be fit to at least travel back to my country if not to return there permanently.

So much to do if I want to be happy! Time is running out and I am wasting it feeling sad, depressed, angry, frustrated, anxious and unloved. (I need to insert an aside here. Each time I go home, it ends up in tears as soon as 3 hours after rejoining my family. And I am berating myself for going when I know fully well how things turn out and desperately trying to find ways to return home to the safety of England! Why is it like this? Why can't my life be peaceful?)

Happy new week, self and... universe!
Weight: Lost so far: Still to go: Diet followed:
195.5 kg 0 kg 75.5 kg Reasonably Well
   (7 comments) Losing 0.8 kg a Week

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