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21 September 2022

so I never ever thought I'd be here again - but I'm fat again! Heavier than ever! SO close to 300lbs! NEVER EVER thought I'd allow this to happen again!!!

I went to a ballet show for the first time last night and it was so sad that I could barely fit in the chair - I was SO uncomfortable!!! Chair was digging in to my sides but thank GOD that I had no one next to me - I would have been mortified.

Also - there's nothing like having this serious wake-up call to see how heavy you've gotten when you are watching some of the slimmest and fittest women alive lol...

One might ask - how on earth could you allow this to happen again? Let me tell you...the mind is a complex and powerful thing...I would say denial is what got me here...I would see a gain and say "I can lose that easily eventually when I'm ready" OR in the beginning I'd say "It's just water weight"...then, after awhile, there's just degrees of fat...once I'm fat I don't care anymore because fat is just fat...you know??? lol...so might as well enjoy yourself until you decide to do something about it again...but I'm hoping I've learned this time that degrees of fat may not matter to society but it DOES matter when you're attempting to lose it because, oh man, being 20lbs over weight would be much easier to remedy than 120!!!!!

Anyway...I am buckling down and losing this....it's daunting that it'll probably be a year and a half before I have abs again - but I'm nearly 40 now and my small frame is having a much harder time with this much weight this time around then it has previously! I wake up in bed with my back spasming and hurting....I'm only 5'5" with tiny hands and size 7 feet...I'm not a big boned person!

I would appreciate prayers...I need this weight off!!!!

My mini goal is 208 - that's when I can look good in a bikini again....

21 September 2022

Weight: Lost so far: Still to go: Diet followed:
132.9 kg 0 kg 46.7 kg Reasonably Well
   Add Comment Gaining 0.2 kg a Week

01 August 2022

Weight: Lost so far: Still to go: Diet followed:
131.5 kg 0 kg 45.4 kg Reasonably Well
   (2 comments) Gaining 2.3 kg a Week

25 July 2022

Weight: Lost so far: Still to go: Diet followed:
129.3 kg 0 kg 43.1 kg Reasonably Well
   (5 comments) Gaining 1.1 kg a Week

10 July 2022

Weight: Lost so far: Still to go: Diet followed:
127.0 kg 0 kg 40.8 kg Reasonably Well
   (2 comments) Gaining 0.3 kg a Week


Sharons Victory's Weight History


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