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This number, - it means I've lost 6st since I began: From 18st8 to 12st8
Back at the start of April, I knew that I could potentially achieve this, I mean I understood that if I just kept going I'd get to this place... but I really didn't think I was going to 'just keep going', in fact I thought the more I think I might, the more likely it is going to be that I won't ... so I was protectively unambitious
But I thought "Let me at least start going this way, I really can't keep on going the other way..." and now look.... I'm happy I got this far.
I'm still going to be protectively unambitious.. Maybe I'm not sure how much further I will get, but I still know which direction I would rather aim for.
I'm still hoping that I'll get to a goal I imagined, - but I am very proud of myself and I feel like I'm no longer behaving unhealthily. I've proven (to myself and my children) that I know how to take control of my body and my habits, and to do so without using any extreme methods, i.e. patiently and in the most beneficial way thinking not only about weight, but also about total body impact (as best I understand it).
It may seem as if I know what I'm doing, but I'm not getting things right either. I'm not upset about that, I expect to be not getting it right yet.
now - I know I could get very precise - record every food - measure every thing - I might be 'getting it right' then, but I don't want to do it that way, I'm aiming for some sort of intuitive recognition of what is the right amount, a sort of natural understanding of which foods keep me full, how much I need, a better interpretation of my body and mind messages, yes of course begun from knowledge, but tuned by practice.. and you know what, I kind of feel that I'm on target with that too. not there yet, but on the way. We've all got different sort of targets and different ways we think we might get there, but being the sort of people that try to change - that's special. This is a place full of special people I'm glad I found.
I'm just posting this commentary because I know lots of people are at lots of different stages, and I'm hoping people can relate to this from one angle or another.
I know we're always happy for each other when anyone gets nearer their goals, but my biggest goal is to get there very sensibly - so if I am going too fast - that really isn't my goal.
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79.8 kg
Lost so far: 38.1 kg.
Still to go: 16.3 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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Losing 4.8 kg a Week
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