suma-ya-c's Journal, 13 Jan 24

Beautifully said! 🙏🌈😊 maybe self-compassion should be the word of the year. 

Thanks Pinkatt. Yes, when did we start holding ourselves to such impossible standards! 

Be kind to yourself that’s what I’ve learned to accept myself & this I can not change great post …. Let happiness be your goal xxx 

Sometimes we loose ourselves but never loose the spark the core of who we are ur still very young am sure life will fall into place Suma as I said be kind to yourself xx 

You’re right Nadia. I was mired in self doubt and I stopped being gentle with myself. I was afraid to let go of people that were no longer on a similar path to mine because I had walked beside them for so long. I think I lost a lot of who I am over the past few years, to keep people with me, when I should have had the wisdom and courage to let go. 

What A beautiful rainbow  

Glad now is the time u move forward without any regrets or looking back …. I am now & only now feel that am good enough it doesn’t matter how people see me it’s how I value myself is what matters I totally feel u 

Hey Girl, be kind and patient with yourself! It’s absolutely fine to pause, take a break, you never know what it can bring you, what if this period of feeling lost or slowing down will lead you to your true self? What if your body/mind just needed a break, a stept back to jump higher? Whenever i feel on low energy or stagnant/lost, i jusk keep reminding myself that i did succeed once, i am capable of doing it again, it’s just a break i take for my brain to adapt to the changes I’ve done. Love yourself the most❤️ 

People can be very disappointing, Suma. I have learnt over the years not to give too many chances as they won't change. Now, I just wish them well and move on. 

Anne i hope you don't put me in that category i a can change? 

😀😀😀chesty, you are the exception that proves the rule 😉  

Anne i don't how to take that my New Year started on Wednesday New me ! 🙃 

Suma I’ve also was afraid to let go of people because I had walked beside them for so long, but realised it was controlling me, and I lost who I was because of it. It’s so hard to let go, but if you don’t you’ll never move on. Life is for learning and changing as we move along. Xx 

It is Scotland. The view was glorious! 

@Nadia, I wish I could say that I’m not looking back or torturing myself with the what ifs. If only it were that easy. 

Thanks Vivienne, that’s so important. I’ve done it all before, I can do it all again. I’ll try and keep reminding myself of that. Growing up is so over rated!🙈 

Anne, it’s harder when I can’t just turn off my feelings. I’m also holding onto some anger. I know I shouldn’t but it is helping me at the moment and reminding me of how I got here. I really enjoyed my PT session. I haven’t been to the gym outwith the one session which is bad I know. I’m back for another session tomorrow so will talk to her about things. 

Thanks LAB. It’s all too raw right now , but it’s good to hear there’s light at the end of the tunnel. It’s hard to let go of people who have been with you for nearly half your life. But you give me hope that it will all be ok in the end. 

Don't get angry Suma move on 

I don’t know Chestnut. I quite like the idea of ripping their heart out of their chest and feeding it to vultures 🤣. Are you home again?