Snowwhite100's Journal, 12 Jan 23

Giving up sweets didn't last very long, only 10 days. On Monday I finally mailed invitations for a Memorial Luncheon for our daughter, but hand delivered 3 to my closest neighbors. On the third delivery, I started crying because of her hurt too, since their college son died 6 months ago. She knew exactly how I feel. I don't even want to have this luncheon because I would rather pretend our beautiful daughter hasn't died. Coming home and starting dinner, I had more wine than I should. I didn't get drunk just a little inebriated which let down my guard, so after dinner, I ate about 3 pieces of See's candy my husband had gotten for Christmas. Today I will start over, but I might eat desserts on the 21st at the luncheon. I'm hoping to take 3 desserts from Costco, which is unnecessary at a big Chinese meal but would look special. I need to go to the restaurant and speak to them about exactly what I want to preorder for lunch. Shrimp in Lobster Sauce, Beef Broccoli, and Chicken in Tangerine Sauce will be the meat dishes, then I'm choosing to have half as many (in volume) vegetable dishes served for one or two vegetarians, Mixed vegetables plus Eggplant in Szechuan Sauce. The first three dishes are so good, I doubt people will eat many vegetables. There will be two choices of soup, either Egg Drop, or Hot and Sour plus egg rolls. They haven't been offering Chinese Chicken Salad since the beginning of Covid but I'm going to ask about it. Also, I want to ask how much it would cost to have cloth tablecloths and napkins. I would pay $1.00 per person more but not $2.00. They only serve tea, not coffee, so I'm thinking about taking my 50 cup pot. My husband says no, but I think it would be nice since we will be hanging around sharing. I plan to share several funny stories like when she fell in the paint. The same pastor that spoke at our son's funeral in 1987 will be speaking at this small luncheon. For our son, it was a funeral at Forest Lawn and 40 guys came from Teen Challenge to sing, and then various ones shared about our son between songs. There were 160 people there then they came to our home for a buffet. We just set up the buffet in the living room on long tables, opened all the doors, and let them file through. We have a long retaining wall around our backyard about two and a half feet tall. I just folded towels the long way and put them on top so people could sit on this short wall, plus we set up several tables on the patio. We had plenty of food. Now we are old and pretty isolated so there aren't many to ask. Our son-in-law isn't even coming from Arizona so even his friends and relatives won't be coming. They were only away from this area for four years. He doesn't even want me to invite their neighbors when they lived here. Very sad. He says he can't handle a memorial yet. He cries half the day.

There will be no video of our daughter, her husband has all the pictures of her the last 32 years. I will just take the pictures I have of her in their pretty frames and put them on the extra tables in the banquet room. I don't even want to make a “board” of them. I have the two wreaths with black bows and streamers from my front doors, and I will buy two orchid plants at Trader Joe's to put on the dessert table. The round tables we eat at will have large turning “Lazy Susan” to serve people from. It would have been impossible to have the luncheon at our home. It was already messy, now with the flood in the garage over Christmas it's an even bigger mess. And I'm a mess too. Thank you, Lord, you are carrying me. I couldn't do this without Him.

Living in Los Angeles on a gentle hill it's a good thing we have a drain next to the patio, with these rains we've been having. Of course, it hasn't been anything like Central or Northern California. But we still had flooded homes and cars in Studio City, a large sinkhole in Chatsworth that swallowed two vehicles, collapsing hillsides along Mulholland Drive, and downed trees and power lines in many other areas. There were pictures of our Central Train Station flooded and the office I was headed to in North Hollywood Monday was flooded.
57.2 kg Lost so far: 0 kg.    Still to go: 3.9 kg.    Diet followed: Poorly.
Losing 0.2 kg a Week

26 Supporters    Support   

Comments 
Wow!!! Snowwhite100 please be safe with all that rain and flooding.  
12 Jan 23 by member: buenitabishop
I am so so sorry. 
12 Jan 23 by member: Connietafoya
My heart is breaking for you and your family. Your luncheon plans sound perfect and I pray being with others that care for you gives you much comfort and strength ❣️🙏🙏🙏 
12 Jan 23 by member: 2melons
So very sorry for your loss. Everything about your plans sounds perfect. Don't overdo cake. Try something light. Some yogurts ate so flavorful. Just add some, and it will be easier for you . May you find strength in your memories. 
12 Jan 23 by member: Boatingdoc
It sounds like a lovely memorial dinner. I hope all goes well with all this terrible weather occurring. Stay safe. 
12 Jan 23 by member: shirfleur 1
My heart breaks for your losses!💜 I can't even imagine! My thoughts and prayers are with you🙏💜🙏💜 
12 Jan 23 by member: Diana 1234
I had wondered if the flooding was affecting you. Sounds like you are busy preparing for the memorial luncheon. I did a similar thing for my Monther in Law summer before last. However I prepared all the food with the help of a dear cousin. It is both difficult and and cathartic.  
13 Jan 23 by member: rhontique
Glad to see you sharing again. Feel free to vent here, or just say what's on your heart. We all care about you. 
14 Jan 23 by member: Debbie Cousins
Wow, you have been so busy with all of the arrangements and have thought everything out, sounds like you will have a lovely memorial. It's too bad her husband can't handle it because getting together with others and sharing memories can help. But I understand everyone grieves in their own way. I love the lazy Susan idea. When I went to China some years back each restaurant we went to had them, very authentic Chinese, they are all about sharing! I'm glad you have neighbors to visit with and my heart goes out to you and your neighbor who have lost children. We lost our dear nephew at age 23 to cancer a few years back and the loss of a child is devastating.  
18 Jan 23 by member: BadJujugurl
I'm holding you in my heart today Snowwhite. I wish I could give you a real-life hug. There are no words that are adequate. I remember my mother's pain when my younger sister died. 💟 
21 Jan 23 by member: shirfleur 1

     
 

Submit a Comment


You must sign in to submit a comment. Click here to sign in.
 


Snowwhite100's Weight History


Get the app
    
© 2024 FatSecret. All rights reserved.