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Do I still qualify for eating "reasonably well" while binging on bread and pasta, but have held the line on sweets and wine? This is day 51 going without those two categories, and I sure miss them. The weight would have gone up a lot more had I been indulging in sugar or alcohol and not intermittent fasting for about 16 hours each day. When I am upset the weight doesn't seem important. I'm ashamed to say it, but my husband has the ability to keep me upset. And I will admit that what is coming in our country (and the world) upsets me too. The Lord holds on to me and I am grateful but I struggle (wrongly) with fear. I keep thanking Him for my blessings, which are many and asking Him to forgive my fear and other negative attitudes.
This has been a hard week. My neighbor's college son died Monday. They don't know what happened but that he had a seizure and the police found him in his room unconscious. The coroner is releasing the body today but said it would be months before she receives the report. She is the neighbor I am the closest to and because my son was killed by a drunk driver at 21, it hurts a lot seeing the pain she is in. My husband is angry at me for feeling hurt (for her) and my spaghetti sauce separating. I hope you are laughing at the stupidity of that.
The good news in my life is: that my husband is doing better since being in the hospital and off oxygen for hours at a time during the day, and not thinking to sleep downstairs. He has been gently pulling weeds. Also the lymphatic lump in his neck from the melanoma cancer shrunk further. The oncologist is shocked since there is no chemo for it. Also, our daughter's cancer markers are substantially better with her new chemo. Her last chemo must not have worked because her numbers were skyrocketing. She has lost a lot of weight (and strength) and wears a size 0. But she and her husband bought electric bicycles so she can go up inclines and they are riding a lot. They just got back from camping in Yosemite and Bass Lake. She is a tough cookie. It's been 5 1/2 years since she was diagnosed with stage 4 breast cancer. They still can not find it in her breast but it spread to all her bones. A very unusual case. Come, Lord Jesus, come.
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60.6 kg
Lost so far: 0 kg.
Still to go: 7.3 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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Gaining 0.4 kg a Week
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