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It's hard to be honest with myself. I had planned to not weigh today because I was actually higher yesterday than this weight. It's like if I turn my back on reality maybe it will disappear and maybe I can change it before anyone (including myself) knows the truth. Totally childish thinking! Obviously, I am very divided which is only one of my various problems. I had gone one day with no wine, but as I was making dinner I thought a little wine is good for me and I can hold out the rest of the day without sweets. I made Costco's lobster ravioli for me but my husband won't eat it, so I made some Bertoli's cheese ravioli for him to have after his big wonderful salad. I put lots of butter and parmesan on it, the way he likes pasta, but he put it on the kitchen counter and without a word, left in the car. I guess he went out to dinner because he was gone more than an hour. He didn't say anything when he came home but I guess I'm lucky that he said good-night to me when that time came. I had 2 big cookies while he was gone.
Last week he asked me to buy Rice-A-Roni out of nostalgia from 40 years ago. I made the chicken flavored pilaf with turkey breast but he wouldn't eat it. He ate his big salad but left the pilaf on the kitchen counter. I admit I didn't like the turkey breast either. It tasted like deli lunch meat which we aren't used to. I now have this humongous turkey breast that I will cut up and give away. The night before I had Boar's Head natural hot dogs but he wouldn't try them, so I made a "Killer Salad" as we call it. I had 3 kinds of fresh berries to make a homemade shortcake but he just had berries in yogurt.
I brought a bunch of organic carrots home to slice and dehydrate Sunday but I can't find the top to my food processor with my kitchen torn up. I had also brought home 14 boxes of fresh blueberries that I had to go through to pick out several spoiled ones in most boxes. Because they won't dehydrate if the outer shell is not broken, I put them in the freezer to accomplish that, rather than blanch them or try to poke each one. They sure could be used on top of oatmeal, French Toast, or crepes but I already have too many berries in the freezer. Last week I brought home 6 lbs of frozen organic wild blueberries and dehydrated them for food storage backup.
For the last several days I have been studying Bokashi Composting where you use lactic acid bacteria to ferment your kitchen waste. After most of the day yesterday of reading and reading about it, I came upon a website that said it really isn't worth doing because it only ferments the food, not really composts it and you still have to put it in the ground to do that. I can't deal with a compost pile because I can't turn it with my bad back. We have one of those heavy plastic compost tumblers but I can't turn it by myself. We have too many trees to keep the roots out of areas I could plant in. I want to use raised beds because our soil here is just ground-up granite on the top and solid granite underneath. I bought 2 plastic totes so far but haven't started them because I need to poke holes near the bottom. Maybe I can do it with a nail and hammer, or may-beeeee I might still be able to get my husband to help me. He said he doesn't have a portable drill (I dare not buy one), and to not buy a used soldering iron because he has one. Will he allow melted plastic on it? I'm in a holding pattern. He does not like me to buy mulch, and didn't like it that I bought the totes. I have grown many slips for sweet potatoes, have growth on many regular potatoes to plant, and am trying to water-root about 30 or 40 basil slips. I brought so much basil home last week, I made 13 plastic bags of chopped fresh basil in olive oil with 2 to 6 tablespoons in each bag. I don't really have a green thumb but think we all better start trying to learn to grow a few things (even if on a balcony or in our kitchens) to supplement our eating in case things get tough, which I suspect. I start many things but complete few.
By the way, maybe I should say I didn't pay for the food I'm telling you about because it was leftovers from a big food giveaway. Yes, I had to go through the blueberries, and even "work" on the fresh basil tearing the brown parts off. Not everyone is willing to do that when the grocery stores get rid of things, but I am willing. Once upon a time, I spent 8 hours picking off all the dark spots off of 23 cases of fresh raspberries. We had frozen raspberries for a year.
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59.8 kg
Lost so far: 0 kg.
Still to go: 6.4 kg.
Diet followed: Poorly.
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Gaining 0.6 kg a Week
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