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I am so addicted to sugar. That includes not only sweet treats and desserts, but also grains like bread, and other high carbs. Maybe I am addicted to bread more than any other. Going up 2 sizes since finishing my challenge with Debbie Cousins at the end of June I have gone up 2 sizes. Others talk about just eating a little dessert or bread, but that doesn't work for me. When I partake, I am triggered just like if I were an alcoholic. I had to be so strict at the end of the challenge to get my money back and get the rest allotted to me, I was dreaming of what I could eat when it ended. I didn't entirely fast like Debbie but was most of the way there for a week or two. I never have been able to find balance. Yes, I pray about it, but God isn't going to “make” me stop eating sweets, high carbs, or binging.
It is imperative I find it in myself to swear off. Since my husband has been diagnosed with advanced melanoma cancer, which is very aggressive, and one of my breasts is hurting, what I eat and serve is crucial since sugar feeds cancer. He may continue with cookies and soda pop, and I can't control him, but what I do will influence him. He saw the first main big oncologist yesterday but won't be having the PET Scan till Wednesday next week to see how far it might have spread. Surprisingly this doctor is hoping it hasn't spread beyond this one spot in his lymph and is leaning toward surgery. It's surprising because my husband has heart failure and I didn't think he was a candidate for surgery at all. I'm not very optimistic it hasn't spread further since he had had abdominal pain for 3 or 4 months. It was also surprising he does not want my husband to have the iodine radioactive dye in his PET Scan at all because of his chronic kidney disease and kidney failure last October. Even the kidney doctor didn't say that, only that it can cause kidney damage. They won't even consider Chemo for him and not even targeted treatment because of his age and many problems. This melanoma specialist at UCLA doesn't really even want to test for him being a candidate for immunology treatment and hasn't started genetic testing. They were all surprised by how good my husband looks for his many problems.
Our daughter and husband were here for 4 days from Arizona. It was mostly good, but always kind of hard too. We've been so busy running here and there for different doctors, tests, studying melanoma, cleaning for our critical daughter's visit, and my back screaming, I've been frazzled. Yes, my husband still yells at me, even though I'm knocking myself out helping him. Our daughter told me her cancer markers in her blood test were up 10 points which was disappointing since she is trying this very strict eating protocol and they had been down in the previous two tests. But she was thrilled with her PET Scan which only had one active lesion lighting up the scan from all her many bone lesions that are quiet or maybe we could even say are in remission at the moment. It's been almost 5 years for her, and she is still pretty strong but has diarrhea every day from her oral chemo. There are no other oral chemos left for her, and she doesn't want to go on intravenous chemo unless absolutely necessary, of course. She said if it wasn't for her husband she wouldn't even take chemo. She is more and more into alternative methods.
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56.0 kg
Lost so far: 0 kg.
Still to go: 2.6 kg.
Diet followed: Poorly.
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Gaining 0.5 kg a Week
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