Im 53 yrs old single struggled all my life with weight. My step dad used to look at my feet and tell me where is the webbing between my toes because i was part whale he would ask me if i wanted a big mac in front of people and i would say yes then he would say IT FIGURES!! I went from 52 waist weighing 350 got down to 32 waist 170 pounds. Then my wife took my 5 year old daughter and moved to new york without me knowing seems she was with another guy behind my back. I havent seen her in 16 years. She brainwashed her against me. Since then i loss the will 8f my life and did not care about anything. All i did was eat and drink a lot of vodka. Vodka has a lot of empty calories i started to gain weight like crazy.i went from 170 to 468 pounds in 20 years. Last year i got disability because mainly my weight and finally got medicaid i havent seen a doctor in 20 yrs. He said i have high blood pressure sleep apnea and a fib. I had to lose weight or die young. I decided 2 months ago to get a gastric sleeve surgery the i had an appointment and went to the seminar and thought i was going to have surgery in 2 months or less so i figured i would binge eat while i can because after surgery i would not be able to.2 months passed i gained 36 more pounds to be a total of 468 pounds. When i seen dr for the first time he said he refuses to do surgery on me right now because it would be too much of a high risk. He wants me too lose 100 pounds before he will consider surgery. I was devastated if i can lose 100 pounds by myself i would not need surgery.i thought how can you be too fat for weight loss surgery. Anyway that was 20 days ago i left his office determined to lose weight i decided to stop drinking vodka and have 2 slimfast shakes a day and a small dinner. I have been doing that for 20 days and lost 36 pounds so far. Another 20 and i can start exercising i hope. Im going to stick to it and DO IT!!!!!