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SPRING RECOMP 2021 - DAY 39 -- **UPDATE**
REST DAY
You know those mornings when you wake up and whatever has been troubling you, holding you back, is past? Divorce final. Fever broken. Charges dropped. Office contents boxed in the garage. Door locks changed.
When the very thing that has defined your reality, seemingly forever, is, in an instant, gone? When that which has consumed you, forcibly preoccupied your consciousness and your days, is, of a sudden, vanished? With only still waters, clear skies, and newfound possibility ahead? A shift so seismic it demands you change your entire mode of engagement with the world?
When a beautiful new reality coalesces in your mind as you awake and jolts you upright to immediate action? Your story at once finished and unwritten. Excuses vapor. Bounding from your bed, the ghost of Christmas future hard on your heels, with the urgency of Ebenezer Scrooge on Christmas morning?
You know that morning?!?
That morning is my wish for you. Regrettably, I will not yet be joining you. My unwelcome lesson in patience continues unabated.
Still huffing oil of oregano and snorkeling faux sea water. Ice pick, night elves, have for the moment joined Ex wife on sabbatical. Thankfully. Intake and scale reasonably controlled. Weather perfect. FS support 10/10. Attitude mid.
Onward.
**UPDATE**
Only a fool could believe night elves take sabbatical. Their stealth activities of last night include, but may not be limited to, flooding the fridge with the contents of the tea jug.
Yesterday #1 asked me if I knew how many times I said "God Fuckin Dammit" during morning chores. The answer, supposedly, is "14." Seems high, but ok. Dirty dishes, dirty dish sculpture, unreplenished ice bin, empty tea jug, dirty socks on the dining room table, unseen cheese gift mid kitchen floor; guest dog hair on the couch, disposal clatter each and every use, coat left on floor...it can add up...
This morning the count was ZERO. I say this not to boast, but to ensure the kharmic wheel is aware that, you know, mission kinda somewhat accomplished with the whole patience thingy; progress at least. Feelin ready to get back to being well, or at least well-ish, maybe occasionally getting a little shit done, a lift day here or there. But, you know, only when YOU feel the time is right. Obviously. Not a minute sooner. I wouldn't consider it.
Quote du jour
“Come what may, all bad fortune is to be conquered by endurance.”
— Virgil
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91.4 kg
Lost so far: 4.8 kg.
Still to go: 7.4 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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1421 kcal
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Fat: 80.59g | Prot: 82.72g | Carbs: 91.14g.
Lunch: White Rice, Red Onions, Manny's Taco Flour Tortillas, Hellmann's Real Mayonnaise, Kraft Finely Shredded Mild Cheddar Cheese, HEB Cantaloupe Chunks, Shoulder Pork Roast (Lean Only Eaten). Snacks/Other: Almonds , 365 Organic Crunchy Peanut Butter, Strawberries, Butter (Salted), Bagel. more...
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steady weight
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