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Late: April 22nd. Had the funeral today, Monday, for my husbands sister. It was lovely but hard for the whole family. Thank you Debbie for your inquiry. Our daughter and husband are here till Wednesday morning, then going south for his father's 94th birthday. They will be back for 1 night Sunday before driving home to Arizona. Even my youngest nephew and wife came to the funeral and out to lunch with us, which was nice to spend time with them. I haven't paid any attention to FS, and yes, I missed signing up for the challenge for the new week. Didn't even think about it. Tomorrow I will be back on track.
I see my head is fuzzy, and stomach upset from sweets, etc. but figure not much damage done. Hope I can remember the feeling to help me get back in the grove, since of course the addiction to sugar and carbs has been triggered. As long as I can climb back in the saddle after a day and a half, I'll be fine. Right now, even at 12:30am, it feels a little like my brain is floating. It's from carbs and chocolate cake for lunch and a late dinner, oh yes, and a glass of wine with lunch. I had decided today was a splurge day, but started the night before. Since I decided, I will now tell myself, midnight was the cut off and I can decide to get back on the straight and narrow. I do know there will be a little pain of craving, but we decide that when we play, there will be some pain to put up with. So glad to have FS, to read Journals, etc. which help to focus on the right things to do. I, and many others, find it hard to get back to the straight and narrow, after splurging, or what some people call cheating. I didn't cheat. I just decided to have a splurge day. But there were times in the past, once I went astray, I wasn't able to get control again for an entire year.
I plan to put on my big girl panties, and be the tough athlete in attitude tomorrow. My head feels like I was drinking tonight, and I wasn't. Can you get drunk on chocolate? While I am saying it is hard to get back on the straight and narrow after a binge, short or long, I have to admit, for me, and lots of you, it continues to be hard each and every day, even when making wise choices. Short binges are dangerous, waking up deep cravings. But living the straight and narrow, is no cake walk either. I congratulate each and every one of you for the real work you are doing in putting the effort forth to try to eat in a healthy way. I celebrate you.
This is the first time since December 10th that I haven't logged in and listed my food. It's okay. I needed the time and space. But I commit (to myself) to work my WOE for the sake of my health, if not my vanity. Thank you FS for being there, and all you wonderful people. You have become a big part of my life. Yes, I probably spend too much time, reading journals, etc. But we all spend time, on one thing or another. This is a lot better than someone sitting on a bar stool, or some other useless endeavor. Good night and sweet dreams. How long will I be able to fast tomorrow?
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844 kcal
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Fat: 56.32g | Prot: 38.69g | Carbs: 48.80g.
Breakfast: Coffee. Lunch: Broccoli, Egg, Kirkland Signature Organic Coconut Oil. Dinner: Mangos, Trader Joe's Smoked Apple Chardonnay Chicken Sausage, Cherry Tomatoes, Green Giant Hass Avocado, Extra Virgin Olive Oil, Cucumber (with Peel), Trader Joe's Chunky Blue Cheese Dressing & Dip, Mixed Salad Greens. Snacks/Other: Health Ade Holiday Cheers Kombucha. more...
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