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Dec 25: What a sucker I am, blowing everything today. I was getting better at Keto, and thought I could resist the temptations of the carb laden dinner. I was going to be a warrior, and be strict on myself. I didn't know I was going to fall off the wagon, flat on my face. My first mistake was not deciding ahead of time, 100% that I wasn't going to have the lasagna for dinner at the relatives. I had been told there were going to be special sugar free desserts with no flour, so I thought that would be my treat for the day. If I partook of the ham, salad, and Brussel Sprouts I wouldn't be so far off Keto and I could leave the holidays in good shape. Was I cocky because I didn't have any wine, or crackers with the smoked salmon or shrimp? Maybe. But it had been 18 hours since my dinner of salad and pecans so I guess I was over hungry. I told myself I couldn't be so rude as to refuse the very first course of homemade Italian Wedding soup It was a lovely sit down dinner, and I knew from previous experience that it was wonderful. Oh those little pastas in it were so small they couldn't make “that” big of a difference, could they? I might as well of gotten on a run away sled on a snow covered hill. The soup was heavenly. My hostess is on a very strict diet, but she was splurging today, so had the soup also, describing it as exploding in flavor in her mouth. How easily we deceive ourselves. Once I had the pasta in the soup, why not enjoy the second course of lasagna? There it was, I had done the deed. Next came what I thought was the healthy items: but two out of the three were deceptions. The salad was fine, but the ham had been basted repeatedly with Maple Syrup and was decidedly sweet. The brussel sprouts were sweeter than candy with more of the prized Maple Syrup to the point I couldn't even eat them. Now I had all along intended to partake of her flourless, sugar free desserts, to enjoy and learn some new Keto tricks. Well, tricks they were. Her four desserts were made with Maple Syrup instead of sugar. She was so proud that it was Pure Grade A, and I was so disappointed and decided not to have any. The big fresh strawberries were dipped in dark chocolate, with whipped cream so I had a few of those. I was on a roll now, and just kept eating everything, having a real binge, pure and simple. I just went on and on, even into the See's candy. Am I a different person that started out so good? How could I, who was thinking I was so strict, do such a thing? I guess pride comes before a fall. And boy did I fall. I won't respect myself in the morning, not even now. My stomach feels like a naughty child. Yes, I say I'll start over tomorrow, but I don't trust myself for anything now. It was only 12 hours ago that I was so proud of the weight I finally lost. How could I be the child sticking everything in my mouth that I could reach, to the point of making myself sick. And then when I got home, and didn't feel so sick anymore, eating more from my doggy bag. No, I'm not proud now and I'm not even confident. Yuck, I'm sick. I had no alcohol, but this is like drinking too much, going on a binge. How can we ever be safe? Maybe you can have a little.
View Diet Calendar, 26 December 2018:
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762 kcal
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Fat: 64.63g | Prot: 24.46g | Carbs: 28.49g.
Breakfast: Coffee, Butter. Lunch: Trader Joe's Pico De Gallo Salsa, Butter, Egg, Trader Joe's Baby Spinach, Trader Joe's Triple Creme Brie Cheese. Dinner: Pork Loin (Tenderloin), Trader Joe's Pico De Gallo Salsa, Trader Joe's Hass Avocado. more...
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