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Day 2 of a planned 5 day ‘no solid food’ fast
Blood sugar 90 mg/dL
As a person who has been obese all my adult life (until recently), I now wonder, what is 'different this time'?
🧘🏾♂️ Motivation 🧘🏾♂️
My greatest 'motivator' is --fear--. I have a lot of fears but there is always the ‘greatest fear’. The greatest fear is always damage to my ‘ego’ (the way I see myself in the world).
When it comes to my eating, my current 'greatest fear' is never having the body I dreamed of at 50. So far this is working, Great! right?
Not so fast...
There is a ‘greater fear’ like:
🌟 Being hungry
Yeah that one is the biggest fear and it comes back every time I eat. It is illogical but, there we go. When I am not eating, and can be objective, my "never having the body I want" fear can return to prominence and 'motivate me'. But, 'fear' is a double-edge sword and can motivate me to 'binge' because my mind illogically feels that it must become 'full' or this opportunity to do so will pass and I will have to feel 'empty' (oh the horror!)
The worst decisions I have ever made in my life can be traced back to a 'fear'. Therefore, I do believe that 'fear' needs to be transcended by a higher faith in principals. I strive toward this, but, of course slip back into 'motivation by fear' all the time. So, it appears the best I can do is 'minimize' fear as a motivator.
😎 Life is Good! Have a great day everyone!
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