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Gentlemen, you may want to just skip over this one. Your comments are always welcome, but don't say I didn't warn you that you may get more than you bargained for here.
I had noticed during the day yesterday that I was feeling very snacky and wanting to eat constantly, which is weird cause I normally never have snack urges. But I kept it controlled, figuring my body needed fuel and keeping the snacks healthy and within calorie limits even if I was a little over my 30% or less carb target. I planned on eating more protein for dinner to even it out, and all would be good. Then I noticed I was getting needy, like emotionally needy, and wanting to cuddle, and getting easily frustrated, and it was like, "Oh, crap. Frickin' PMS is here."
And then I went legit crazy last night, decided I wasn't cooking, and OMG I needed food, and the family needs to eat... and I ended up at Popeye's Chicken. Believe it or not, it gets even worse. We had to wait so long for our order, they threw in 6 dessert pies.
I still haven't logged all the food, and I'm struggling to bring myself to do it. I know it's going to be bad, like more than a whole day's calories bad. And really I just needed to put this all out here for accountability purposes and as I'm typing it's getting easier to own up to it and face logging it all.
But I'm just really disappointed in myself, especially after I commented on HardDaysKnight's journal yesterday about how I was finally feeling back in control after my weekend cheat, only to go food insane two hours later. And then to step on the scale today and see myself up a pound from last week. I know looking at my trending I bump up every fourth week just to have a big drop the next, so I'm sure some of it is because of where I'm at in my cycle, but I'm really afraid that that food monster is going to possess me again before I get through this.
And (deep breath) now I feel better having gotten this out. Logging on FS this morning was absolutely amazing seeing so many people celebrating reaching their small and major goals. You people truly are inspiring, so if you've gotten this far thank you so much for posting your stories! You really pulled me outta my self-pity party just by being you.
I'm gonna go log "the chickening" now.
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1214 kcal
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Fat: 51.81g | Prot: 86.19g | Carbs: 101.83g.
Breakfast: Herbalife Nutritional Shake Mix - Pralines & Cream, Herbalife Protein Drink Mix - Vanilla. Lunch: Garlic Butter, Cooked Mushrooms, Athenos Natural Crumbled Feta Cheese, Ken's Steak House Country French with Vermont Honey Dressing, T. Marzetti Caesar Baked Croutons, Fresh Express Spring Mix, Lemon Juice, Sweet Pickle Relish, Hellmann's Real Mayonnaise, Kraft Sun Dried Tomato Vinaigrette Dressing & Marinade, Baked or Broiled Cod. Dinner: Birds Eye Voila! Garlic Chicken. Snacks/Other: Herbalife Nutritional Shake Mix - Dutch Chocolate, Herbalife Protein Drink Mix - Vanilla. more...
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