poppycom's Journal, 07 Nov 16

First step towards solving the problem is admitting the problem. You can do it ! :)  

You Are Enough :) 

So many knock backs at once :( You do sound like you're going to use it as a spur to action, though. All the best with the re-start. 

thanks for the support x  

*Sighs*.....Some folks love to kick you when you are down, don't they? Some have NO social graces and I sure hope your daughter apologized to you about what she said. My mother is 82 years old and I would NEVER and have NEVER thought to say anything so crass to her even out of anger. You may need to lose weight, but these folks need to learn diplomacy. I don't think that you don't know this or that you are ignoring this; you've just had setbacks in particular your back issues and being hospitalized for SIX months. AND then, to be greeted back with this rubbish? I don't care what you weigh; you didn't and don't deserve this. Loose the weight not because of what these people said mindlessly to you; loose the weight because you know it's what you need to do for yourself. I've been overweight and I've been thin and I've been in between overweight and thin and someone somewhere will still find something to be ugly about. This I know. Make this about YOU, not them. Hugs and good luck!   

^^ agree with Arabella. You can do this for YOU.  

*CLAP CLAP* Arabella ^^. I will NEVER understand people that feel the need to hurt others. It most definitely shows THEIR character, not yours... 

your weight does not define "You." Respect yourself and Love yourself then you wont care about what others think or say. And yes this is for "You" , and you can do it ! 

When I worked in restaurants, my cooks would tell me every day that I was fat - like I didn't see myself in the mirror each morning. They actually called me "Primo Panzon" (fat cousin). Some people just don't have filters. Don't let it bother you. It will want to bother you, but it's up to you to brush it off and know that it doesn't matter. If you WANT to lose weight, it's totally up to you and for you. 

You didn't need all that from colleagues and daughter - sending hugs. 

Well said, Arabella and Kahne! 

Remember, when people behave so callously, it says a LOT more about them, than it does about you. I can speak from experience that people weren't always very kind to me at my heavy weight. And while I can look back at those days and photos and admit to myself that I was NOT taking care of myself, and by extension - had not really learned, yet, to fully value myself, that didn't mean others had free license to conduct themselves like raging **ats. Ultimately, none of them - none of that - is what caused me to lose weight. Only when I wanted it bad enough, for me - when I wanted my outside and inside to match, for me - when I wanted to smile at the world because I felt that good, every day - did it come. I want that for you - truly, I want that for everyone here, strangers or otherwise. You deserve better...including the best version of yourself. Work for that, and as best you can - drown out that noise. The world is full of people consumed with pain. You are not duty-bound to become one of them. xox 

thank you x