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Another nice surprise by the scale!
I guess not surprisingly I have been thinking about my mother and the way she is and how she has treated my sister and me. I have had random thoughts cross my head about appropriate responses to her and the most recent one - which spun me into deeper thought - was "and you wonder why my sister is an alcoholic in an abusive relationship". That got me actually thinking.
I don't blame my mother or my past for who I am today. But growing up with her was not easy. As I said before, I moved out when I was 13 and I am very lucky to have had my father as a person to talk to and for a place to live. But I am very different from my sister and while we grew up together, she got it worse. She was molested twice by different people, she stayed with my mother longer, and she just isn't a fighter like I am. I was always the one telling everyone what was right/wrong/off. The relationship the two of them have is VERY unhealthy.
Also, as I said before, my son adores my mother. He is not a fighter like me. He is a nice person, super kind, and more like his father. But he is strong and happy with himself and able to accept it's "their crazy" and not his. I think he will be ok if, and I have not yet decided my plan, I continue to have my mother in our lives.
What she did isn't the end of the world, it just made me realize she will never change. It made me contemplate if I wanted that toxicity in my life.
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93.7 kg
Lost so far: 8.3 kg.
Still to go: 32.5 kg.
Diet followed: 100%.
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1355 kcal
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Fat: 110.19g | Prot: 78.19g | Carbs: 33.29g.
Breakfast: Dunkin' Donuts Dunkin Cinnamania Ground Coffee, Egg, Del Monte Avocado, Kraft 3 Cheese Mexicana Shredded Cheese, Silk Pure Almond Milk - Unsweetened Original, Heritage Farm Black Forest Ham. Lunch: Del Monte Avocado, Daisy Sour Cream, Kirkland Signature Shredded Tex Mex Cheese, Beef Top Sirloin (Lean Only, Trimmed to 0" Fat, Cooked, Broiled). Dinner: Del Monte Avocado, Jalapeno Popper Chicken, Cauliflower Rice. Snacks/Other: Kroger Hard Salami. more...
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Losing 5.7 kg a Week
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