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Grr. My complete fault for the gain - I caved and didn't follow my meal plan. I don't even know what to say. It is my fault. I allowed myself to be/feel triggered and that is something I can control.
Stress, pressure (kid injury, hours at Kaiser, and then I finally did my taxes) and then good ol' degrading and mean mother and I revert to a kid again. I was so hurt and then I was angry. I shared with her my news about losing 10lbs and how excited I was and her response was hurtful, self serving, and just flat our mean all while she was putting me down and judging me.
Today I have a much healthier response and I don't care - that is her crazy. I am sad for her that in all of these years she has not been able to change or grow into a nicer person. I am still trying to figure out what my ultimate response will be. My typical response is to just stop talking to her and walk away. I moved out when I was 13 to escape the craziness BUT my son absolutely adores her. Something to continue to think about.
I am back at it and I know it will take me at least 3 days to get back to where I was. Stupid me. Lesson - by now should be - learned. No more.
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94.5 kg
Lost so far: 7.5 kg.
Still to go: 33.3 kg.
Diet followed: Poorly.
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1355 kcal
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Fat: 110.19g | Prot: 78.19g | Carbs: 33.29g.
Breakfast: Heritage Farm Black Forest Ham, Dunkin' Donuts Dunkin Cinnamania Ground Coffee, Egg, Del Monte Avocado, Kraft 3 Cheese Mexicana Shredded Cheese, Silk Pure Almond Milk - Unsweetened Original. Lunch: Beef Top Sirloin (Lean Only, Trimmed to 0" Fat, Cooked, Broiled), Kirkland Signature Shredded Tex Mex Cheese, Daisy Sour Cream, Del Monte Avocado. Dinner: Cauliflower Rice, Jalapeno Popper Chicken, Del Monte Avocado. Snacks/Other: Kroger Hard Salami, Kroger Hard Salami. more...
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Gaining 2.5 kg a Week
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You've got this! Keep moving forward as I know you will! 🙃
11 Mar 24 by member: Laurie62707
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My mother has completely cut my grandmother out of her life (for very similar reasons that you are describing). And she was a happier person as a result. She wanted my brother and I to cut all relations with her as well, but I continued talking to grandma until her death. I loved my grandma even though she was a psychopath, but I'm also happy my mother didn't have to suffer interacting with her. So I'm theory you can have both, cut all relations with your mother and don't break the relationship between your son and her.
12 Mar 24 by member: EyesoftheBlueDog
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